Monday, January 3, 2011

Tschüss und Bis Bald

holy experience

I write pensive.
Reflective, Aware, Torn, Melancholy, weeping deep inside where no one can see but my Maker.
My troubled soul twists so that it threatens to suffocate.

No pretty packaged answers. My understanding is caught up with thoughts of a  fleeting life that we clutch like a vise.

I know, I've learned, I've studied and read. His intimacy is familiar. I recognize His whisper...we are in relationship.
He sustains me and I trust........
Some things only Eternity will reveal.

I hang my head, the grief threatens my next breath. The thought of her leaving this world leaves me mournful, crestfallen and joyful all in this moment. A dear friend says... "This is the sadness we feel for those she leaves behind and the joy we know she is experiencing!! It's compassion"

I want to tear this cloak of despair... I see her children. Children saying goodbye to their mom all too soon.

In reality she is being promoted. Odd to say, and strange to write, apart from a Creator.
She walked into His arms. Cured, whole, pain free and reunited with her earthly love who only a year ago left. Oh what a reunion that is. I know her, she will dance.

Why clutch onto today?
Our tomorrows are with Him.

Some things uttered in her last breaths shared by her best friend..

"YOU are the joy set before Him"

Psalm 73:26 - My health may fail, and my spirit  may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever.

"God the Father gave me the breath of life, Jesus my savior takes my breath away."

Isaiah 55:8,9 (HCSB) *For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

"I love Your ways."

"Our lives, our existence is because of Him and an offering to Him"

You friend will be greatly missed. We grieve, not without hope. Rebecca's first loss...She will hold your daughter and we will stand at attention to fill any and every void that we are able. You most certainly are filling your unquenchable thirst for travel now. Not bound by an earthly body.

As I move forward in making my life as much about worship as I possibly can and counting 1,000 I give one.


Elani and Karen our ♥

Tschüss und Bis Bald Karen


  1. Hey there! I just found your blog through A Holy Experience and I'm so glad I did. I'm looking forward to getting to know you better!


  2. I dont know who you lost, but I lost my Godly mother 12yrs ago...grieving and praising w/you.

  3. very sweet post in honor of your dear friend!! You were a blessing to her, I know!