Monday, December 12, 2011

The beautiful people

This week I fight hard with dirt beneath my nails to find things to give thanks for.
As always thankful for my family

This was no pretty week!
The temptation; to not blog at all. To stuff down the ugliness because after all I'm a mature God fearing Christian woman. Don't we reach a point in our maturity where we no longer need to see such ugliness in our hearts?
This is the month of blessings and giving thanks for said blessings.

Not speaking it...well then it's somehow not committed to.

I feel as though I just crawled through the muck and mire to this keyboard. Somehow it seems an injustice for "Laughtershock" to be so heavy and downtrodden of late but it real, it's life.

Truly at wits end. Ready to cash it all in...whatever that means. I drive about with thoughts of a one way trip out of town. Could I do that to my children? So hemmed in and yet shocked that the thought even finds it's way into my entertainment.

As I wrestle my flesh I know that caregiver fatigue is mostly the culprit but I don't seem to be able to right myself. This boat sees itself about to capsize.
The frailest of people, needing love and support and care. Striving to deliver their happiness but it seems to merely evaporate in thin air as it leaves my hands.

Ahhh Lord give me strength.What more can I do?

This downcast, discouraged and drained of all strength soul.
My strength is in You and right here at the end of myself may I find You and Your rest.
Worry is my bedfellow and I rebuke it.

May this time next year Lord I look back and see a reflection of a beautiful person...woman. Refined and with Your reflection!

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths.

These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep, loving concern.

Beautiful people do not just happen.

--Elizabeth Kubler-Ross--

#217 Your promises
# 218 Faith
# 219 Family


  1. Hi Robin - you are doing all the right things. We all get frustrated and 'not pretty' in our attitudes every now and then, its how you climb back up that counts. Praying God restores your inner peace! God bless and thankful for your post today, its an encouragement that I'm not alone! :)

  2. Thank you Laurie, I know you are.
    Tracy you have the gift of encouragement and thank you for sharing it with me.